I think i dont have that luck to be with you.

Sisters,Brothers or whatever! I lose everything i got ! Why cant i be cared by my sisters?? Why must i be so NERD!!?? I really cant forgot about you all.When i see you i feel i'm so happy but because of you my life only can be so COMPLICATED.I can do everything to you because you are my sister but why i cant feel that caring from you?? Everytime i feel i'm so lonely and i miss you a lots.Everytime I said i miss you and you said you miss me too but does it really come from your true heart or you just want me to be HAPPY?? I hate LIARS!! I really dont have that idea to forgot you.If i lose you i feel i wont be so happy like i always did.I just want you to be happy and when i need someone to talk to you can always be side me and support me.When i recall the sadness from my brain,i really want to kill myself.I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU WANT TO TREAT ME LIKE THIS !!! I TREAT YOU AS MY BEST SISTER BUT WHY DONT YOU TREAT ME AS THE SAME WAY THAT I DID !!! ??? IS THAT SO HARD FOR YOU?!! BOYFRIENDS KILL EVERYTHING!!! THEY CHANGE ALL OF MY BESTIE EVENTHOUGH MY SISTERS"S LIFE!!!!! HRRRRGGG!!! I'M REALLY SUFFER.Day by day i try to forgot everything and try to stand for everything but i CANT!! WHY IS THE GOD TREATS ME SO BAD!! WHY DID I DO TO YOU ?!!!! WHY ARE BAD GUYS GET EVERYTHING THEY WANT BUT WHY GOOD GUYS CANT GET ANYTHING?? I HATE THIS WORLD!!!!