Do i actually don't love him anymore?

I'm feeling so out of confidence.Does my heart really don't need him ? Why did we end so fast? Is that a fade? When i saw you with my first eyes,i felt i had a crush on you.Later on,when i slept i dreamt about you.Suddenly you told me you dreamt about me too.After that we were in a relationship.I was really believing in fade at that time.I thought he is my true love but we end up at 9 days.I'm really happy when i with him but i'm really sad when we broke.On the past 9 days he gave me a birthday present.It is a pen.After we broke.I was thinking whether should i return the pen to him? I'm not willing to return him back but i have to! I believe that all of those things are the punishment for me.I'll have to take it.

A Weirdo Sister

I'm really tired.I've already tried all my best to be a happy girl and never think so much but she really makes me crazy.In the school today(aug 19.2009) I saw her with a group of friends.She saw me but she keep hiding from me like avoiding something from me.I don't really bother about that.The worst and sad thing is on my birthday,she never wish me!! That's very sad you know that? I really want to know whether did i do anything wrong to her ?? I really want to know !! My question is DID I DO ANYTHING WRONG TO HER?!!!!! When i didnt see or receive her wish i feel that in her heart i'm not exists anymore.I'm giving up now.I'm too tired of friends and SISTERS !!!! I HATE EVERYONE !!! MY LIFE GOES BACK TO THE SAME SITUATION.