(13.6.2009)-The Worst Day I ever Had

I am getting weird now.I don’t know why.I just feel regret to what i did.I know i was wrong all of the time.I have been trying to be good but once i’m too good to them ,they will step up on my head.I’m really confuse.I don’t know the way to treat my friends.Can anyone teach me ? I really need some one to care for me.Everything i did to my friends,they just don’t appriciate it.They forgot everything.I don’t know why i want to treat them so good rather than my family ? Now i lost all of my friends even my god sisters.I want to know whether is it my problem or their problem.All i wish is i could make my friends happy.I don’t mean to quarel with them.I think i have to restart everything into a new life.I think everything i do,it wont be wrong again.