I'm sorry that i can't help you.

I didn't know that i care for you.I also couldn't believe that is you.When i realised that is you , i keep asking myself why is it you.Why?? I told my good friend about this and once she heard what i said , she felt that is not only CARE.I was so afraid and i'm so worried that is really not only i care for her.I can't control myself.I used to care for lots of my friends but i never get the right one.Every of them disappoint me until i care "Her".I was a little afraid of how she thinks , but when i know that she is nothing with this and she even said she felt happy.I feel so happy and i tell to myself that finally i get to care for the right person but things really change.Sometimes,i'm so hard to communicate with her until she has to be the first one to talk to me.When she has an accident , i'm totally speechless and i can't help her anything.Sometimes i really want to know how she thinks about this stuff.I really dont want to be more than that because it will spoil my everything.I hope what i do is like caring for a good friend.That's it!

Things can't change anymore cause i have blindly fall for you.

I can't stop thinking of you when i know you are having problems or sick or anything.I just can't stop bothering you.I just can't stop thinking of you.Are you so important to me?? I thought that i would hate you more than i care for you but i guess i have felt for you blindly..When i know that you are sick , my heartbeat suddenly goes so fast..I really don't know what to do..I didn't to do all those stuff to you cause i guess i still love you <3 <3 <3

Who are you ? I can't recorgnize you anymore.

You just make me can't recorgnize who are you anymore.I should have known that you are a party type.Even i know that , i didn't expect that you can make a tattoo on your waist.I don't understand that making tattoo is it so fun ? Maybe i'm too sensitive ?? I just really hope that you can appreciate yourself and not simply be with a guy . You are a pretty girl and you should be appreciatting and not keep going out like this .. You really disappoint me. Whenever you said to me , u didn't do it . You even forgot what form am i now . Why must i keep making all this to u but u didnt even know ?? Eventhough you know , but you didn't bother.What's in your mind is just LOVE. I'm tired of all this stuff. You have your own freedom and i'm not YOUR REAL SISTER , so why must i care so much ?? I don't even understand you well. I just can be a failure to you .

"Friend" - Can it be more than a friend ?

I'm so happy that i still can get your support .
I'm so glad that you can tell me family is so important to us .
I thought you have changed until u dont even know that you still have a family .

But why , u must tell me we are "FRIEND" for so simple ?
Do you know ,i've been thinking for so long did i still got that chance to be your little sister .
I thought you were always be my listener and supporting me whenever i face problems .

I thought nothing can break our relationship .
I can still remember every word that u are supporting me .
I know even if we get to be like old time we will never be so close anymore .

I think i've make a big mistake .
I shouldn't have did this stupid things .
This is the punishment that i get from the god .

IT'SIMPOSSIBLE THAT WE WILL BE LIKE THE OLD TIME . IT'S OVER .

The hardest and complicated things that i can't forgot about it.

I wish to forget about you .

Everyday when i look at your message ,

I felt excited but somtimes i don't .

I'm not sure ,

What are you in my heart .

I'm happy when i with you ,

but when u sms me ,

i felt everything is differet .

I feel that our relationship is getting far .

I dont know how to deal with it .

I really need to leave here .

I realise that , there are some other people ,

Can be more carrying than me .

I don't know how to comfort u.

I don't care where are u or how are u .

Maybe you are not my true love.

A lot of pressure

The pressureness is making me headache.I don't know how to be a human being anymore.It's so confused.I don't even know how to treat a person too.When i'm back from school the pressure follows me back.Even i have no mood to talk to other people.I feel so grumpy.Why must i have all this stuff in my head ?!! I need some peace.I'm begging for that.I can sleep very well , i rather wish for not to wake up forever . It's killing me . Things are getting complicated . I'm worried that i cant handle it anymore . Can anyone really give me a good advice or cheer me up ?? I'm suffering right here .

Unsupportive Father !

Today is the first time i heard my dad says my ENGLISH like shit infront of me ! Do you know How hurt is that ?? I know u are clever but u also dont have to say like that infront of me . I was born to be in a malay school . What i can do ? I know my english isn't very good to you, i also want it to be good and PROFESSIONAL. I'm trying . i'm trying !! I'M NOT GONNA LOOK ME DOWN !!